Happy Birthday, My Sweet Victoria

Today, I should be holding her. I should be counting her tiny fingers, and toes. I should be crying tears of joy, instead of these tears filled with so much pain. I should be kissing her small face, and asking God to keep her safe forever.. Instead, I just feel as though I've lost her all over again.

I like to think that I've holding it together pretty well lately, but its days like today that just seems to crush me. Thinking about holding my sweet new baby girl today, when all I have are her ashes feels like I'm waking up in a nightmare. Nobody should ever feel this pain. Ever.

From the moment I found out I was pregnant, I knew my life would never be the same; I just hadn't imagined it this way.

Victoria, even though I may not hold you in my arms today, I will forever carry you in my heart. You are so loved, and so deeply missed. We cherish every part of you.

Daily Scripture 

“Carry each other’s burdens, and in this way you will fulfill the law of Christ.” -Galatians 6:2