I Will Carry You..

I can't put into words how bad my heart aching today. Just when I feel like I'm going to be okay, my emotions get the best of me, and I turn into a blubbering fool. Yesterday while driving home from doing the groceries, I had to pull over & stop the car. It's amazing what simple words in a song on the radio can do to a broken heart..

A friend sent me a link to this song today. Head in my hands, I cried for a good hour. My sweet princess came to my side and gently rubbed my shoulders while holding onto me. I honestly don't know where I'd be without that precious smile of hers.. She is my biggest reason to believe in miracles..

There were photographs I wanted to take
Things I wanted to show you
Sing sweet lullabies, wipe your teary eyes
Who could love you like this?

People say that I am brave but I'm not
Truth is I'm barely hanging on
But there's a greater story
Written long before me
Because He loves you like this

I will carry you
While your heart beats here
Long beyond the empty cradle
Through the coming years
I will carry you
All my life
And I will praise the One Who's chosen me
To carry you

Such a short time
Such a long road
All this madness
But I know
That the silence
Has brought me to His voice
And He says ...

I've shown her photographs of time beginning
Walked her through the parted seas
Angel lullabies, no more teary eyes
Who could love her like this?

I will carry you
While your heart beats here
Long beyond the empty cradle
Through the coming years
I will carry you
All your life
And I will praise the One Who's chosen me
To carry you

Today I got the call from the Fertility Center 2 hours from home. While this is an answered prayer, I feel like the journey ahead of us will still be a hard one. Amidst everything, I still continue to pray for answers, hope, and strength..